The Perfect Imperfection

Ever wonder what if? I  do. Ever wonder if you're the only one that thinks what if? Me too. Im writing the blog from my phone, because as of right now... I dont know what to do other than to write. so much has built up inside of me lately. i was always warned, junior year changes everything you thought was good. i feel like my life has been chewed up, blended, made into a slushie, and spit right back out. im tired of feeling alone, and frankly i dont think i have to. everything i've come to know in my entire life i'm now questioning. why? i shouldnt be. im tired of feeling like i'm the only one messing everything up, i'm tired of wondering for everything i do "what if?" i know that im not the only one going through this, i couldnt be, am i wrong? life shouldnt be about wondering if everything you do could change your life drastically. lately ive been thinking a whole lot about my path for life, i dont have all the answers, i wish i did, i wish someone did. i dont want the decisions i'm making now effect me down the road in twenty years, "this is your future" is all i seem to ever hear anymore, life is scary, to me. you too? hey, i guess this is just a faith based thing we've got going, i'm buckled in along for the ride. all i can do is pray that i make it down the road.