Choose to be happy.
I think this is going to be my new motto, it's summer and I want to be as happy as possible. Not just because it's summer, but this is for always. I will no longer surround myself with things or people that make me unhappy. You don't have to be unhappy, every single person has the power to change things, to turn their life around, or just add in a little bit of happiness. I don't know where my realization of this came from, I just realized there's no point in being sad. I get how people are passionate about something, coming from Miss Passionate herself, but that doesn't mean sad. I'm done being mad at people for stupid reasons and holding grudges, those add onto burdens I have or stress that I feel. I'm not saying everyone is forgiven for the things they've done to me, but I will no longer keep the bad memories in the front of my mind, they'll just go into storage into a separate area in my brain. I will be happy, I will choose to be happy. I plan on having a fantastic summer.
Here are some happy songs. :)

Summer lovin' had me a blast

Summer lovin' happened so fast

So, summer has been great so far. My sleeping schedule is already completely outta whack. It got me thinking though, this summer I'm not going to be forced to see people I don't like, or who don't like me. I always love that about summer, where I'm completely happy because I'm surrounded by people who love me just as much as I love them. No drama. We'll see how it plans out. In the mean time, I love working. I like the environment, and just having an excuse to get out of the house and make new friends. I'm also looking forward to not being broke. So, here's to summer and all the adventures and new things this one will bring me.

Summer starts Thursday at 2:30. I think I can make it. I've never been this ready for summer in my entire life, and I intend to make it the best one. 

So, i was thinking. I have a big heart, maybe not on the outside, since I'm not that nice sometimes. But I'm not one of those people who doesn't give second chances, or when you break my heart, or betray my trust, I never trust again. Maybe that's part of the reason I get hurt so much? Because I let people back into my life who probably shouldn't be there because of the things they've done or said to me. Or is it because I wear my heart on my sleeve for anyone to just rip into a million pieces? Who knows. I just know that not a single person can say, "Erin doesn't talk to me anymore because I broke her trust, lied to her, etc." I give out second chances like nobody's business. Maybe I shouldn't. But then again, I mess up sometimes too. I would want someone to give me a second chance. I've given 10294321 chances, what's a few more going to do?

By the way, Prom was this weekend. My friends were gorgeous.

   School's ending so soon. It's crazy. I'm not too happy though, more like stressed to the extreme. I always get like this towards the end of the year, and it's completely my fault. I slack off for most the year, just barely getting by. Then BAM, it hits me. I have 3 weeks to pull my grades up. I always manage to do it, but it's not very fun. I have papers to write, projects to do, missing homework assignments I'm trying to make up for, and finals to study for. I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. My math final is Monday, not looking forward to that, and my AP World History exam is on the 12th. I have a wonderful packet of stuff to study for, along with the final for that class, too. Awesome. When is school over again?

    On the positive side of things, I applied for a job at McAlister's Deli on Friday, and guess who got hired? :) It's exciting, my first job ever. I don't know if I'm going to like working all that much though. Who knows. It's money for stupid, expensive gas. And it will get me out of the house a lot more. My first day is tomorrow, and I work again on Friday. Woohoo, we'll see how that goes. Back to writing on my paper now, 17 more days until Summer. 17 17 17 17 17 17 17 17.