Ever wonder what if? I  do. Ever wonder if you're the only one that thinks what if? Me too. Im writing the blog from my phone, because as of right now... I dont know what to do other than to write. so much has built up inside of me lately. i was always warned, junior year changes everything you thought was good. i feel like my life has been chewed up, blended, made into a slushie, and spit right back out. im tired of feeling alone, and frankly i dont think i have to. everything i've come to know in my entire life i'm now questioning. why? i shouldnt be. im tired of feeling like i'm the only one messing everything up, i'm tired of wondering for everything i do "what if?" i know that im not the only one going through this, i couldnt be, am i wrong? life shouldnt be about wondering if everything you do could change your life drastically. lately ive been thinking a whole lot about my path for life, i dont have all the answers, i wish i did, i wish someone did. i dont want the decisions i'm making now effect me down the road in twenty years, "this is your future" is all i seem to ever hear anymore, life is scary, to me. you too? hey, i guess this is just a faith based thing we've got going, i'm buckled in along for the ride. all i can do is pray that i make it down the road.

Thinking back to this same time last year is crazy. I was in such a different point in my life. I was finally no longer a freshman, I had friends that I thought I would be friends with for the rest of high school, I didn't drive, had no job, I hadn't earned the trust my parents have for me yet, I was more naive, but I wouldn't quite say I'm any smarter now. I guess last year I thought I was in this bubble, where everything was perfect, and it'd stay that way for the rest of my time in high school. Boy was I wrong, I'm in a different place in life. A total 360.

Who have I become?

That's still a question I've been asking myself daily. Is it better or worse than what I was before? Have I grown as a person? Have I made the right choices to get me where I am now? I still have another year left before college. I can't look back at my past year and remember any of the nights where I stayed home, I've made memories that I never want to forget. I think that has a big part in what has shaped me. New experiences, new mistakes, all in a year? Hard to absorb.

It's just hard to believe how so much has changed in one year. Everything was so different.

It's that time of year. I've been dreading going back to school since the day we got out for summer vacation. Best summer of my life? No, not in my book. It was a good summer though, made a lot of money, and a lot of new relationships have been formed. I can also say I've crossed a few things off my bucket list. I also got a perm! Crazy, I have curly hair now. I've officially put 2,000 miles on my car this summer and I haven't even left Macon. Today though, was the day I had been avoiding even thinking about, orientation. It reminded me of how I have to deal with the ignorant people at my school, but it also reminded me that I get to spend more time with the genuine people I have in my life. My schedule isn't bad, and I hope it'll be an easy year. So tomorrow morning, I will be up before the sun is to get ready and go to my Junior year of high school. Although it will be sad, it will also be a new adventure.

On a different note, it feels great to be blogging again. I forgot how much I need it to just write and get things off my chest. I had my laptop taken away majority of the summer, but ya know. That's a different story. For the time being, I have an odd urge to clean everything in sight. So I'm gonna go continue doing that. This song is a really good song to clean your room to.

Choose to be happy.
I think this is going to be my new motto, it's summer and I want to be as happy as possible. Not just because it's summer, but this is for always. I will no longer surround myself with things or people that make me unhappy. You don't have to be unhappy, every single person has the power to change things, to turn their life around, or just add in a little bit of happiness. I don't know where my realization of this came from, I just realized there's no point in being sad. I get how people are passionate about something, coming from Miss Passionate herself, but that doesn't mean sad. I'm done being mad at people for stupid reasons and holding grudges, those add onto burdens I have or stress that I feel. I'm not saying everyone is forgiven for the things they've done to me, but I will no longer keep the bad memories in the front of my mind, they'll just go into storage into a separate area in my brain. I will be happy, I will choose to be happy. I plan on having a fantastic summer.
Here are some happy songs. :)

Summer lovin' had me a blast

Summer lovin' happened so fast

So, summer has been great so far. My sleeping schedule is already completely outta whack. It got me thinking though, this summer I'm not going to be forced to see people I don't like, or who don't like me. I always love that about summer, where I'm completely happy because I'm surrounded by people who love me just as much as I love them. No drama. We'll see how it plans out. In the mean time, I love working. I like the environment, and just having an excuse to get out of the house and make new friends. I'm also looking forward to not being broke. So, here's to summer and all the adventures and new things this one will bring me.

Summer starts Thursday at 2:30. I think I can make it. I've never been this ready for summer in my entire life, and I intend to make it the best one. 

So, i was thinking. I have a big heart, maybe not on the outside, since I'm not that nice sometimes. But I'm not one of those people who doesn't give second chances, or when you break my heart, or betray my trust, I never trust again. Maybe that's part of the reason I get hurt so much? Because I let people back into my life who probably shouldn't be there because of the things they've done or said to me. Or is it because I wear my heart on my sleeve for anyone to just rip into a million pieces? Who knows. I just know that not a single person can say, "Erin doesn't talk to me anymore because I broke her trust, lied to her, etc." I give out second chances like nobody's business. Maybe I shouldn't. But then again, I mess up sometimes too. I would want someone to give me a second chance. I've given 10294321 chances, what's a few more going to do?

By the way, Prom was this weekend. My friends were gorgeous.

   School's ending so soon. It's crazy. I'm not too happy though, more like stressed to the extreme. I always get like this towards the end of the year, and it's completely my fault. I slack off for most the year, just barely getting by. Then BAM, it hits me. I have 3 weeks to pull my grades up. I always manage to do it, but it's not very fun. I have papers to write, projects to do, missing homework assignments I'm trying to make up for, and finals to study for. I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. My math final is Monday, not looking forward to that, and my AP World History exam is on the 12th. I have a wonderful packet of stuff to study for, along with the final for that class, too. Awesome. When is school over again?

    On the positive side of things, I applied for a job at McAlister's Deli on Friday, and guess who got hired? :) It's exciting, my first job ever. I don't know if I'm going to like working all that much though. Who knows. It's money for stupid, expensive gas. And it will get me out of the house a lot more. My first day is tomorrow, and I work again on Friday. Woohoo, we'll see how that goes. Back to writing on my paper now, 17 more days until Summer. 17 17 17 17 17 17 17 17.

I was told this week that I tried too hard to be perfect, I was also told a lot of other mean things, but this one thing stuck out like a sore thumb. I was told this by someone I barely knew, so it made me wonder. Do people really think that who don't know me? It makes me question what I show on the outside. I know that I'm not perfect, and that I never will be perfect, nor do I try to be. Blog title, The Perfect Imperfection, being perfectly imperfect? I like making mistakes, I learn from them. But, what can I do to make people that don't know me think differently? My first encounters with people are usually awkward, because I'll do something stupid, and they'll look at me weird, then I'll have to introduce myself and inform them that I'm not normally like this. Story of my life. Being told this doesn't make me want to change who I am as a person by any means at all, I'm content with who I am, what I'm growing up to be, how I look, my friends, I'm just a pretty happy person. It just makes me wonder what those who haven't peeked into what my life is like and who I am as a person really think of me. I guess it will always be a mystery.

For all you bored Spring Breakers, watch. This video is too cute.

For the past few days, the trending topics on Twitter have been about boys and how they basically... suck. Most people would think that I'm anti boys. I'm not, I'm just anti douchebags. I just want to get out of this slump of high school where boys honestly just don't care. I'm not accusing all guys, because there are a lot of good ones out there. None have found me though. All my friends know how much I want to get married one day and spend the rest of my life with the guy I fall in love with. I guess that fantasy gets in the way of the reality of high school. It really hurts me to see how everyone gets hurt though. Relationships are so different now than they have been before. What happened to loyalty? I feel like in society now people aren't as genuine as they used to be. I rarely see men going completely out of their way to make a girl happy. You never see the teenage guys thinking of ways to impress us either. Everything is about Facebook relationship statuses, or who texts who first. I wish that wasn't the case. I think it's complete and utter bull that we have to wait for a guy to text us and then get completely upset if he doesn't. Girl's are so weird in the way that we are wired. Boys really should come with a warning label. I always watch those sweet 80's and 90's movies where the girl would sit by the phone waiting for the guy to call her. I think it's just too sweet. I see happy couples everywhere, and I guess I'm jealous. No, I am jealous. I'll find someone someday, but I'm content with where I am now. For the most part. Chivalry still does exist. I believe it.

I thought Spring Break would honestly never get here, and I don't think that I've ever been more ready for it than I was this year. I started out my break with Bearstock. The wonderful day full of hanging out and seeing awesome bands. Including Parachute Musical, Roscoe Dash, and 3OH!3. It was super fun. Also, Josh from Parachute Musical commented on my last blog, which is a freaking huge deal. So I tracked them down at Bearstock and now we're Twitter buddies and I think they're awesome. I got home from Hilton Head Island today, and it was quite wonderful. It's always nice to get away, and I wish I could've stayed longer. I went with my biffles Emily and Madisyn. I wish Katie would have been able to come. The beach is so relaxing. Coming home today was kind of sad though, seeing all the roofs with tarps on them and all torn up. That tornado really messed things up. For the remainder of the break I'll be writing my essay and doing a bunch of super fun WHAP work. Three more weeks of school. Gosh, I can't wait to get out. Let the countdown begin.

      I haven't blogged in a really long time. Sad. Where to start? Hmm. I got my car fixed! I was without it for longer than I even had it. My phone broke. SO sad, I've had that thing for almost two years. It was a part of me. It went to heaven though, I'm sure. School has really been stressing me out. It seems like everyday there's a new essay to write, a new test to study for, or some unreasonable project to do. One more week until Spring Break and Bearstock. So excited, I get to see 3OH!3 and Roscoe Dash, along with Parachute Musical. Then the next morning to go the beach with my biffles Madisyn, Emily, and Katie. So excited! Free of school for a week. Then one more month and I will no longer be an underclassman. I've spent my past few Friday nights playing capture the flag. Sounds lame. But, so much fun. In the dark, roaming around a school, climbing through the bushes, looking for the glow stick flag, running from people, getting tagged, then going to jail. I'm not going and getting drunk, I'm playing capture the flag. Hahaha. It's so fun, with 15 people or so. Kind of throws me back into my elementary school days. No joke.
     At the moment, I have the worst sunburn I've ever had. I went to our last home soccer game against our biggest rivals. We dominated. It was also the hottest day of the year so far. Oh, Georgia weather. I wore a tank top and was in the sun for 6 hours. So I have a tomato red face and a funky tan line. So painful. Another thing, the mosquitoes are starting to come out. Gross, haven't missed them. Now I'm rambling. I will blog sooner again for sure. Til next time.

Kid Cudi copied me, proof! 

He's not perfect, nor am I. And us together will never be perfect.

I spent my weekend with 500 of my closest friends, fun right? A group of Younglife Macon drove up to Sharptop Cove this weekend. One of my favorite places ever. We basically paid 35 dollars to go work all weekend. Work Crew 2011. I did it last year and had a blast, even though setting tables, serving food, cleaning food, and washing dishes isn't everyone's ideal weekend I love it. It's awesome to just meet all those new people. We also had a group from North Gwinnett and Hilton Head come up, I love making new friends! It rained all weekend, bummer. That didn't stop us from having fun. I got about 7 hours of sleep total for the weekend, but that's what I signed up for. My body also hurts all over. I had 3 cups of coffee each day, it kept me semi-functional. I had the cutest little boy at my table named Conner. He told me to meet him at the snackbar at 2 o'clock so he could buy me an ice cream. I didn't think he was serious, but then the kitchen got a call asking for me. Sure enough, he bought me ice cream! Adorable. I also got the pick up line "Excuse me, you dropped your name tag" with a pack of sugar. I had the best table of middle school boys.

-44% of teens have an accident in their first year.
-16 year olds have higher crash rates than drivers of any other age.

Yepp, I'm a statistic. I wrecked Friday afternoon. My life suckssss. I'm one of those girls that wrecks her new car when she got it. Now all my friends are gonna hold it against me, and make fun of me that I wrecked. Thankfully I wasn't faulted. My poor Penelope is broken. I didn't total it, which is good news. It wasn't a hard hit either since I was practically standing on my brakes when I hit them. My parent's aren't mad either, whew! I guess it's true, it's the other driver's you have to look out for. Oh well, all will be good eventually. Just gotta get all the insurance situated, then Penelope will be back. I forgot how much it sucks having to depend on people for rides. Till next time.

Longest week ever. Anyone else agree? My laptop got sent back to me today, maybe it will work this time.

Here I am, blogging again while I should be studying for WHAP. Soo, I want a puppy. Bad! John got a Golden Retriever puppy this weekend and named her Buff. So, of course, we had to go meet that precious thing! So why not make a day out of it? We ended up going to my house to make signs for Truett Cathy's 90th birthday and went to Chickfila and got free sandwiches-- Awesome. Then to Katie's house to hang out and watch Madisyn play Just Dance. The ended the night with Younglife. Pretty great Monday don't ya think?

"The world is ending." 

Earthquakes, tsunami, floods, landslides, diseases. I mean, it's all leading up to something... right? This subject is so controversial it's ridiculous. Some would think that this past disaster in Japan would be a start of the world ending. Who knows. In the bible, it says that no one will know when the world will end. So why would God make a date that's predicted? It's a crazy thought to grasp in my opinion. The world...ending? I do think that the time we're living in is "Global Warming." I mean, we treat the Earth like crap. Even though there is so many people trying to fix it, there's sure as heck a lot more that doesn't care. Then again, the world can just be going through some changes, big deal... it's getting hotter. There was a mini ice age a really long time ago. Also, the world has always had natural disasters. I think that people are just paying more attention to it now, and blaming the world coming to an end. I wonder what December of 2012 will be like. I feel like it will be chaotic, that's for sure. So many people believe that the world will end. I'm sure there will be plenty of suicides, people doing crazy things just so they can check it off the list, it'll be different. The world was supposed to end in 2000, too. None of the computers or anything were programmed for 2000 anything, only 19__. It's a silly thought in my opinion, but I'm sure people did the same thing. Here's my opinion on the subject, I don't think it's actually going to end. I think that the Mayan's just stopped making the calendar. It's silly to base the Earth's fate on that. 

Someone asked me what my blog was about, and I wasn't really sure what to say back. If I replied "my day" then they would probably think I was conceited enough to think that people actually wanted to read about my life. Who knows, maybe I am. I blog because it's a stress relief, I also like sharing my life with people. I blog because it's not so normal, and I like that. I blog because I have so many thoughts that I don't want to be wasted, so why not share them with the entire internet? That's why I blog. So I guess the next someone asks me what my blog is about, I still won't have an answer.

I'm in a wonderful mood right now, so I'm going to share 10 of my favorite things.
1. Eye makeup! I love it. I like the fact that you can completely transform the way you look just by experimenting with your eyes.
2. Tie dyed shirts. I love every single one that I have, and I probably wear them more than anything else in my wardrobe.
3.The color purple. No, not because of gay pride or anything. I just love the way it looks, I like clothes/shoes/etc. more if it has purple on it.
4. Driving. I love to drive. By myself. I like turning up my music loud and just driving, I dont understand how people don't like it. It's calming.
5. Ranch dressing. Mmm! I hate it on salads, but it just about makes everything taste better. Like french fries, chicken, pizza, carrots, everything!
6. New Jersey. Yes, The Jersey Shore, too. But when I went to NJ in August I fell in love. The people, the accents, the food! Oh my gosh the food. I wish I lived there. For real.
7. Teeth. They are the absolute first thing I look at when I meet someone. I take good care of mine.
8. Social networking. Yes, typical. I love Facebook, Twitter, and Blogger a little bit too much.
9. Weddings. I've never been to one. I can guarantee you I've seen more wedding shows though. That's what I want to be when I grow up, a wedding planner. Weird I know, but it seems fun.
10. My phone, of course. I love it. If you've seen my phone, you know that the back is painted purple with nail polish and it's now duct taped together. I've had it for so long. I don't know when and if we'll ever part.

This is a long blog, I know. Till next time.

   It's that time of year again. The awkward, emotional, fun, and awesome Father Daughter Dinner. I've been going since second grade. Who doesn't like getting dressed up and spending the night with her daddy? I know I do. I know I complain about him a lot, but I guess he isn't that bad. As annoying as he can be... I'll always be a Daddy's girl. This made me think, I've never brought a guy home for my parents to meet. I can only imagine how awkward that day will be, makes never want to bring any guys home. While I'm on the subject of guys though, I just want to say how much I hate them. My best friend got her heart broken today. I know, it happens to all of us. But seriously, I'm tired of these mean, testosterone filled excuses for people ruining girls days. 

   I really admire Marilyn Monroe. I'm not sure why. Her quotes are amazing. I feel like we were the same person, even though we were FAR from it. Even though she didn't live that great of a life, she sure as heck did live to the fullest. I want a black and white portrait of her for my wall, not to be obsessive, cause that's weird. But I love putting new things on my wall. Maybe it could go next to my big PMS sign.... :)

     So, the day came. The one that I, nor any of my friends thought would happen. I GOT A CAR! Yes, it's true. They surprised me. It's nothing fancy, no brand new Lexus that's for sure. I had my hopes up for a little Honda Civic or a VW Jetta. I got a Chrysler Sebring. Ehh, my mom picked it out. It's definitely going to have to do some growing on me, kinda an old lady car. But you know what? Who cares! Not me. I have a car, and it's way better than the minivan. Which is what I've been driving around for the past 6 months.

I named her Penelope.

     On another note, my Lit teacher told us to write a journal entry of our life. What was stressing us out, making us happy, things like that. I had total writers block, so I just wrote down everything that I was upset about. But then Madisyn told me all I had to do was blog on paper. DUH Erin. Didn't even think that those two things were even slightly related. I really do love to blog, whether people enjoy reading this or not. It really helps me just get all my feelings out. My WHAP teacher was whining about how she heard we were "cheering" about her not being there on Thursday. Suck it up. In my opinion, if you're going to be a teacher you need to know that not everyone is gonna like you.

Just saying, a guy would complain so much if he was a girl. We have it hard. Also, I've gotten in this bad habit of over analyzing everything. Ya know, I can't be the only person who has

• "I hate myself" days
• "I want to die" days
• "I'm so ugly" days
• "Why is this happening to me?" days
• "I feel retarded" days
• "I can't stop thinking about you" days
• "I'm gonna check my phone every five minutes for you to text me" days
• "Thanks for ignoring me" days
• "I hate everyone" days
• "My life sucks" days

You guys have them too, right? 

Last night was fun, I attempted to learn how to "Freeze." Emily taught me. Just a typical Friday night at Katie's with the best. Our Math student teacher got fired, HAHA. I'm drowning in my homework. Til next time.

Boring weekend. But, I finished my essay. YES!

        So those of you who aren't an only child, we all know that parents pick favorites. No matter how much they deny it, you know that they secretly like one better than the other. In my case, it's the youngest of our family, my little brother. He's spoiled rotten, and my Dad likes him because he's the only boy. Where I'm getting at is... my mom has a work conference in Orlanda, FL this week. So instead of her just going, my Dad decided that it'd be super fun to take my brother out of school for the week and go down there with my mom to the ESPN center and watch the Atlanta Braves practice during Spring Training. Even though I don't like baseball all that much, I'm still jealous. So my sister and I are stuck here, staying with our friends for the week. But the way I look at it is, it's a week away from the family and spent with my best friend Katie.

On another note, tonight was Monday. Which means YoungLife! I love it. It was 80's night, so of course i took full advantage of dressing up. :)

My weekend has gotten off to a great start. For one, Thursday and Friday my WHAP teacher wasn't there. It just made me entire day better. Last night me and the girls went to see Justin Bieber's movie Never Say Never. I personally thought it was great, I loved it. He's so darn cute. Then after that we went to El Azteca and attempted to order in Spanish, yeah. Attempted being the keyword. My Saturday so far hasn't been very productive, I have an essay to write, and a project to do. Bleh. This will be a school filled weekend. It's supposed to be 76 degrees today! Woohoo. I get to wear shorts in February. Life is good.


A little side note, I know what you're doing. Every time I refresh my page, the "not really" option on my poll has gone up 2 or 3 votes in the past 15 minutes. Clever, you know how to refresh a page. Find something better to do, it's a beautiful day.

Good, bad, and the ugly. I have so much on my mind right now, and I don't know what to do with it. So I'm making a group of my past few days.

Good:

• I had a good weekend, and spent time with Anna
• Monday wasn't the typical 'I hate everything' day for me
• I got a facial today
• I got a balloon, boxes of chocolate, and the cutest red dog ever from A.J for Valentines Day. It dances and sings!
• New teacher wasn't that bad
• A few more days till Friday, then 3 day weekend!

Bad:

• It was my new teacher's first day, definitely not the same as Mrs. Hoffman
• I didn't have a real Valentine
• The lady giving me a facial told me she understood about sensitive skin and blemishes. Ummm, no you don't. Her skin was perfect. Of course.
• Our whole entire WHAP class got punished because of one person
• I have one hard butt essay to write 
• My WHAP teacher whines like a 5 year old
• My laptop is broken, again. I think I got a dud.

Ugly:

So today during first block, my WHAP teacher(I know i keep bring her up, but I absolutely have so much venting to do on her right now) gave us two extra weeks to do our essay. But nooo, ONE person had to complain about it, and go on and on and on and on. So of course, she punishes the whole class and changes the date back. She also blamed us for not turning in an assignment that was due last Wednesday. In my personal opinion, if only 5 out of 28 students turned in something, it's obviously the teacher's fault for not having adequate communication. So yes, 22 of us get half credit (50, which is an F. Which sucks) and she just had to be a little fart face about it.

I know this is a negative blog, but I just had to vent. So I did. Back to my essay now, I hope you readers had a better day than I did.

I had a bittersweet Friday. One of the best English teacher's I've ever had left Howard. She got a new job and had to leave mid-year unexpectedly. Sad. We had a bunch of food, picture taking, and goodbyes. It was very sad, and she will definitely be missed. On a happier note, my Friday night was awesome. A big group went to Taki to celebrate Campos' birthday. The most awesome Younglife leader ever. After that we all went to the last 6 minutes of the Howard - Central basketball game. An intense 6 minutes at that. Then all piled in cars and went to Macy's house where we played Just Dance 2 and had birthday cake for the remainder of the night. Hilarious watching some of those people dance. I'm worn out, that's for sure. Macy's house also got rolled, so I also spent some of the day cleaning up toilet paper. Gotta love highschool. I think I'm staying in for the night. Oh well, I have a World History essay to write.

1,000 views! I feel acomplished, knowing my blog has been read a little over a thousand times. Pretty cool. I also am 30 tweets away from my 1,000th tweet too.
Got my grades today, yikes. That's all I'm gonna say on that. I tell myself I'm going to buckle down, but never seem to. After completely bombing the WHAP test and my trig test... I need to work a lot harder. So, I've been reading a bunch of Buddhism documents(not for fun), and he seemed like a pretty cool dude. Basically, what i learned is... If I want to get rid of all the crappy things in my life, I have to cut them off completely. Leave no room for them. Pretty good advice, so this week my phone for the most part has and will remain in my drawer. I kinda feel better when I'm not constantly on it. I was also thinking, when I'm a mom and all grown up, am I going to look back on the stuff I'm doing in highschool now and in the future and be really dissapointed and regretful? It makes me think about really changing some things around. I want to have a good time in this suckish 4 years at least. Oh! Good news, my laptop got shipped back to me today! Yay, I missed it. Hopefully it's fixed. I should finish my homework now.

Heyyyy, it's Superbowl Sunday. Packers won. I could care less though. I didn't really know who to cheer for. So recap, Christina Aguilera messed up the National Anthem, typical. BUT, if I was singing in front of millions of people, live, a capella, hey... I would probably mess up too. Also, was I the only one that thought Fergie did awful?? I spent my night over at Emily's with my favorite people. We ate a lot of junk food, pizza, cookies, brownies. Usual. Good weekend I'd say. The rain finally stopped. Geez, that was too long. It was actually warm today. I also could blog about how mad I am at a certain person, but that would probably end up being a book. School tomorrow. Joy.

"On the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright.

Then this thing turned out so evil, I don't know why I'm still surprised."

I've always loved the song I Love The Way You Lie, like I've probably mentioned before. But I came upon the girl who originally wrote the song, and I personally think It's a million times better. Better lyrics too. Listen to it, forreal. My week has actually been pretty fantastic so far. School has gone by super quick, and has been pretty laid back. My laptop got sent back today, so it should be here in a few days. I'm so happy! I also got my haircut! Woot woot. I love it. The weather has been yucky all week though, after such a beautiful weekend... it has rained all week. No bueno. In my English class, we had this thing called a writing circle, where we all shared stories and turning points in our life. It was really emotional, but so great to get on that level with all of my friends. I actually am going to miss my teacher when she leaves next Friday. On a slightly different note, I hate boys. To all of you guys that are reading this. Start treating girls right. I hate seeing my friends get hurt. That's all for now, time to study for my WHAP test tomorrow. Wonderful. Tomorrow is friday! Be happy :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGVGove7IsI

Brilla! Sparkle in espanol. Cool, I know. Tonight was a Younglife fiesta. Pretty fun. My wonderful friend Madisyn and I wore sombreros, and rocked them I might add. I have my homework here sitting next to me. I'm over school already. This week will be my first full week back since before Christmas break. Intense. Overall, my Monday wasn't so bad. I absolutely adored the weather this weekend, it's great wearing shorts in January. I have had two boring blogs in a row. Oh well. I'm determined to have an interesting week.

I'm in the music mood. I've been listening to new songs and such for almost 3 hours now, I also played the piano for the first time in months. I'm kind of mopey, I need to cheer up. It's Saturday night and the rents won't let me go out. NOT happy. I've sent maybe 7 texts today. Something is a bit wrong. Brownies sound yummy right now. Have you ever heard the band A Rocket To The Moon? I'm listening to their song called 'Like We Used To' right now and it's not too shabby http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=US46cHVj0-M. My hair is a ponytail for the second time this week, definitely time for a haircut. Maybe I can get one Monday. Oh, I'm better. I went back to school Thursday. My voice has yet to be found though, sad. I kinda like being hoarse though. Weird.  I wish I had something big to blog about, but I don't. I'm done with Lord of the Flies. Finally! I need to finish my WHAP project. Maybe tomorrow will be blog worthy. There's another day left of the weekend, thank goodness

My immune system sucks. I hate missing school, because it doesn't stop just because you're not there. I wish it did though. I've spent the majority of the day on the couch, watching tv, bleh. I have a fever. It sucks. I've also been listening to Rihanna. I'm just in one of those moods. I think I Love The Way You Lie will always be one of my favorite songs. I actually know all of the words, which is a first. I've been living off of waffles and Nutella, I guess it's my sick food. I love twitter. I've tweeted literally like 40 times today. Sad. I hope I'm better by tomorrow. I need to get back to school. It's been rainy today, no bueno. So get this, Kim Kardashian and Janelle and Amber from Teen Mom got into a fight over the internet. Kim said she didn't support how MTV projected the lives of teenage moms like it's a good thing. Janelle commented back saying how Kim had no room to talk since she had a sex tape scandal a few years ago. Kind of a good point though. Kim > Janelle.  I gotta agree with Kim though. It's bad enough if you're 16 and pregnant, not to mention if you broadcast it on national television. Oh well, that's my feelings on that. Back to the boredom of being sick.

I love Taylor Swift. She's awesome. My weekend has been pretty uneventful, other than my IHOP date with my favorite people Friday night. I've decided that school depresses me. All the school work and drama doesn't make me very happy. I'm extremely ready for summer, too. Not just for the fact that we won't have school, but for the warm weather. It's so cold! I really want my haircut, everyone says I have an addiction to getting my haircut. Maybe I do. I kind of get a high off of it, I know that's not too normal. But I'm hoping to get one soon. I've been in kind of crappy mood lately, I think it's cause of a certain person though. Sucky situations... well, suck. I'm not looking forward to this 5 day week. I have yet to start my homework or study for my test. Instead I'm blogging. Good priorities right? My laptop is off to the doctor getting fixed, so sad. You all need to watch E! tonight at 9, Bridal Plasty comes on, and it's a hoot. I also love all my friends, random I know. But they make me happy. Now homework time. Wait, I gotta go get my sister from the mall. The joys of having my license.... Til next time.

Everything is finally going back to normal. Thank goodness. School is blah. Today has been the longest week in a while. Probably because it's a 4 day week instead of the past two weeks where we've only had 3. At the moment I'm eating a piece of toast with some Nutella on it. Best. Thing. Ever. I failed my first World History test, kinda sad. I'm ready for the weekend, most of it will be spent doing homework though... again. :( I'm wearing purple eyeliner. I love purple eyeliner. My laptop got sent back to get the motherboard (whatever that is) replaced. Sad day. Jersey Shore tonight! Woot woot. Tomorrow is Friday, thank goodness! That's all for now.

My weekend in a nutshell. I hate homework. School tomorrow. Snooki went to jail. I'm sleepy. It's raining.

Boring day. My Saturday consisted of sleeping til noon, watching The Social Network, and restoring my laptop. The movie inspired me to be a zillionaire like Mark Zuckerburg. It'll never happen though. I told myself I was going to finish my homework this weekend. So far I have failed, my books are still sitting on the floor just being looked at. Lord of the Flies is probably one of my least favorite books. And get this, our English teacher is leaving for another job. Wonder how that's going to pan out. I'm pumped for having yet another day off from school tomorrow. I have a dream that one day I'll have my own holiday and kids won't have to go to school because of it. I made a funny, catch that? (Cause Martin Luther King "had a dream" and it's his holiday......yeah) Oh well. I will finish my homework. It seems to be taking over my life. Oh, and I think I might get a pedicure. Let's see how productive my day will be.

When's the weekend again? I know this is only going to be a three day week, but oh my goodness, these days have been so long! I had to write "I will not say shut up in Senora's class" 50 times today. Gotta love high school. I have had the most homework I've had all year. I knew AP was gonna be a lot of work, but I didn't expect this much. Too much reading. It's Thursday... and we all know what that means! Tshirt time! Love it or hate it, you know you're obsessed with it one way or another. Jersey Shore at 10 o'clock. Get excited. I really really wished I talked with a Jersey accent. No joke. Tomorrow is Friday though, finally. Movie night at my house with my wonderful friends. Yayyy! But as for now, I'm going to make some hot chocolate, put some fuzzy socks on, and continue to study. Awesome right? Until next time.

Tweet tweet, I think I'm addicted to Twitter. No joke. Oh, and Ashton Kutcher. I'm very excited we only have a 3 day school week. Kinda a relief. I slept til noon today, it was great. Then i proceeded to finally finish my homework. Go Erin! My day consisted of very little activity, I watched some tv and played around on the computer, fun stuff. I think I lost 6783 pounds though. Just Dance 2 is probably one of the funnest video games ever, it's a workout too! Geez, I'm worn out. I lost the majority of the games too, considering how awful of a dancer I am. Tomorrow morning isn't looking so wonderful to me... I will most definitely be sore from playing the Wii so intensely. Hahaha. School tomorrow, bright and early, wish me luck. Til next time. 

Good news: No school today, and none tomorrow!
Bad news: It didn't snow.... ice?


I love how I live in a town to where half an inch of "snow" will get us 2 days off from school. Hey, who isn't up for a extended weekend? It's gross outside, you can't play in the ice and it's all yucky. Not my thing. When's summer break? It does give me yet another day to finish my homework though. Procrastination for the win! But as for now, I'm counting down the minutes for my favorite show, (besides Jersey Shore of course!) Pretty Little Liars to come on. Kinda sad that I schedule things around my tv time. Oh well, I'll be all nice and cozy next to the fire. There's my day in a nutshell.

Some songs are so depressing. But is it just me, or does some certain songs relate exactly to the situation you're going through? Goodness gracious, it's weird... but I guess everyone goes through similar problems. Hey, I just am never able to write a song about it. This weekend has been a good one, although right now I'm blogging instead of doing my AP World History homework... Shhh! Yesterday was one of my very best friend's Emily's birthday. We surprised her! It was great, my first surprise party to throw/ever go to. It's so weird to think how we're all turning 16... I know it's not that old, but still. We can drive! We're getting on up there on the food chain I would say. Just two more years and we'll be 18, then 21, then 30. Yikes. We'll all have little babies and jobs and we'll be all grown up. Pretty intense to even think about. Also, it is supposed to snow tonight! My town is so weird with weather... and it never snows when it's supposed to. I'm putting my money on no school tomorrow though. A three day weekend would be awesome. Anyways, that's all for now. Homework time, let's see how productive I can be. :)

Ear plugs, they would come in handy a lot of the time. Parents make me wanna get out of the house as much as possible... I never realized it, but the way we live is so similar to the way our parents lived too. Even though it's changed so much and they think they get everything, they do understand some things that I don't give them credit for. For instance, it's sad how girls will wait ALL day for a guy to text them... and hey, I'm guilty of that. But I'm sure all of our moms used to wait all day for the guy to call them too. Same thing right? One thing I don't get though is why my parents don't understand why I never like to be home and spend time with the family. I guess their brain kinda just blocks out their teenage years... because I'm sure when they were my age their first goal wasn't to "spend time with the family." Parents nowadays, what can ya do? 

Why? I know education is important nowadays, but I seriously don't understand why people put so much pressure on us. What sparked this thought was of course, getting report cards today. And it would happen to me that my only C was a 79. Fantastic right? If I was a teacher i would have just moved it up to an 80. But i guess not everyone thinks like me. Then my dad was rattling on about how if I don't have the hope scholarship how I'm not going to college. GEEZ. I'm 16, I really don't want to talk about college right now. I'm not even halfway through high school. I just think it's unbelievable the pressure we're under nowadays to do well and school, be perfect, and how if we don't get a proper education we'll go nowhere in life. The generation I live in has just come to that, guess I'll have to live with it. Whatever. It's Friday. No time to think about school until Monday morning at 7:30.

I consider myself a pretty outspoken person, but yet not outspoken enough. I always end up feeling like I have so much more to say than I can ever get out. Random emotions I'll feel. What I really wanted to say to that person. And what I think about a certain subject. Here's to starting something new, my blog. I'll be known someday.